Today I released my first book.
I’m plagued by self-doubt.
Why did I do this? There are so many books on Amazon. No one will ever find mine. You can’t find it unless you search directly for Ava Clary. Amazon won’t recommend it to anyone until it has sales data.
How will this work? I’ll never support myself with my writing. I’ve wasted my whole life on this dream, quit good jobs, got an English creative writing degree, which is useless. The book is silly, nonsensical and doesn’t even fit Amazon’s categories. Why would anyone buy my book?
My book came out today. I’m not excited. I can’t pretend to celebrate. Why should I be hopeful? If I fake it, will I feel better? I want to keep whining.
But why do I keep telling myself, if it is a good book, it will sell. Just because there are hundreds of millions of books out there, aren’t we all looking for another one to love? Will it be this one? Maybe the next one I read will be the best I’ve ever read. Or the next.
Will you try mine?